#080 – The King of Illiterature (Reupload)

This isn’t really a post on mental health. It’s a post on my stupidity. I struggle with stuff I paid no attention to in school. I was to busy chasing girls, smoking weed and hanging out with mates. I did the bare minimum to get through each year. For me being popular and the classContinue reading “#080 – The King of Illiterature (Reupload)”

#075 – Discharged!!!

I was finally discharged from hospital yesterday. My time was up. I’d had enough. I saw Gem (psychiatrist) before I left to get my scripts and to catch up before I left for home. As it stands I am taking Clozapine, Lexapro, Invega Trinza, Somac, Atenalol and Nitrazepam. I had to fight for the NitrazepamContinue reading “#075 – Discharged!!!”

#063 – Golconda Avenue

I met Sarah in rehab (Blog #099) in 2013. We formed a relationship and once we finished the rehab program we moving into a rental on Golconda Avenue in Frankston. It wasn’t long before I called things off and soon after Sarah moved out. My brother moved in and that didn’t work well at all.Continue reading “#063 – Golconda Avenue”

#054 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 14

Two weeks! How time flies. I think this admission is coming to a close. Gem (psychiatrist) is still playing with my med’s (story of my life). He has increased the antidepressant Lexapro which will take weeks to kick in. As always, my Clozapine has been slightly increased. I am still taking Nitezepam but I’ll be ceasingContinue reading “#054 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 14”

#053 – My Tinfoil Hat

I’m a conspiracy theorist through and through. I know this is sometimes a symptom of schizophrenia but I tend to only believe in conspiracies that are provable. I’m not one of these these people who believes the earth is flat which is a theory that is gaining popularity and I’m not sure if the worldContinue reading “#053 – My Tinfoil Hat”

#050 – Alcohol – Part 2

This is a continuation of Blog #045 which should be read first. I left off with my drinking at work. I got away with this for a long time. I was manager of a department at Coles. This came with some responsibilities including being in charge of around 15 staff members. It could at timesContinue reading “#050 – Alcohol – Part 2”

#049 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 12

“Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t after you” – Joseph Heller I sometimes think people are out to get me. The police always scare me. Sometimes when I’m out in public I think people are following me. I’m very conscious about being tracked on the phone and through the television and internet. ThereContinue reading “#049 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 12”

#047 – Us Alcoholics Can Be Sneaky Bastards

We can be sneaky bastards us alcoholics. We can be quite creative covering up our drinking. I would lie which is something I don’t do unless it comes down to my drinking. When I was asked if I had been drinking my standard response would be no or I’d play it down by saying inContinue reading “#047 – Us Alcoholics Can Be Sneaky Bastards”

#045 – Alcohol – Part 1

This is such a big topic I honestly don’t know where to start. Alcohol! I could write a book on my relationship with booze. I’m going to break this down into different entries. This is part one. This is going to require some courage from my end as a lot of this is unknown toContinue reading “#045 – Alcohol – Part 1”

#044 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 11

It’s 4:30am and I am wide awake. The nurses encourage me to go back to bed but I figure I might aw well be up doing something rather than tossing and turning in bed. I didn’t have as much joy on my new seeping med’s as the previous night. Typical bloody benzo’s. I build upContinue reading “#044 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 11”

#026 – Private Vs. Public Psychiatric Hospitalisation

I think most people have the wrong idea of what a private psychiatric ward is all about. The important word there is ‘private’. I’ve been through the system over the last 15 years. I don’t know how many months or even years I have spent in clinics. I have been to maybe 5 different hospitalsContinue reading “#026 – Private Vs. Public Psychiatric Hospitalisation”

#012 – Simplicity is the Key

I didn’t know how to title this blog? Like my head this will be all over the place! I live a pretty simplistic life. I am a strong believer in keeping this as easy and simple as possible. I don’t appreciate activities that put me outside of my comfort zone. I don’t desire things thatContinue reading “#012 – Simplicity is the Key”

#010 – Schizophrenia and Relationships

One of the hardest things for me to get around when it comes to meeting ladies (mostly online) is letting them know I don’t work, I’m on a disability support pension, I have a history of mental illness, I have scars all over my body and I take medications. This is a big pill toContinue reading “#010 – Schizophrenia and Relationships”

#006 – Psychiatric Admission – Day Two

 Another day in paradise. There is very little to report on. I spent almost the entire day sitting in the communal lounge staring at my laptop. I’ve been trying to work out this blog website. For something as simple as posting blogs the website is pretty intense. There has been a bit to learn. SoContinue reading “#006 – Psychiatric Admission – Day Two”

#005 – The King of Illiterature

 This isn’t really a post on mental health. It’s a post on my stupidity. I struggle with stuff I paid no attention to in school. I was to busy chasing girls, smoking weed and hanging out with mates. I did the bare minimum to get through each year. For me being popular and the classContinue reading “#005 – The King of Illiterature”

#001 – Welcome to this Mess!

Welcome to all. As I sit here on my hospital bed I ponder what got me to this place again? Lets get it out there… This is my 14th psychiatric admission in as many years. Where does one start?! Do I begin with my first psychotic attack? My stay in the Intensive Care Unit atContinue reading “#001 – Welcome to this Mess!”