#071 – I Could Have It Worse

As bad off as I am and I don’t like making comparisons but there are some people doing it a lot harder than myself. The psychiatric ward is a good reminder of this. Over the years I have met so many people with different illnesses at different levels of severity. Most have mental health issuesContinue reading “#071 – I Could Have It Worse”

#067 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 18

Enough is enough! I haven’t spoken to Gem (psychiatrist) but I have told the nurses I want to be discharged in a few days. I have gained all I can which hasn’t been much. I’ve had some slight medication changes and some timeout from the outside world but it’s now time to go home andContinue reading “#067 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 18”

#058 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 16

I wonder if I’ll ever get better? I look back over the last 15 years and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress over this time. I’ve tried every medication under the sun, spent hours talking to psychiatrists and been hospitalised so many times I’ve lost count… and for what!? If anything has improvedContinue reading “#058 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 16”

#056 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 15

They forgot my med’s! I fell asleep and the nurses somehow managed to get sidetracked and I didn’t get my Clozapine dose. It’s not as if the nurses are ran off their feet and their main job is to give out medication. It’s not hard. I thought Gem (psychiatrist) would be pissed off as heContinue reading “#056 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 15”

#043 – Psychoanalysis and Med’s as a Teenager

I was a messed up child and teenager. My folks sent me to a child psychologist when I was 15 and I went through psychoanalysis and was medicated. I was put on Venlafaxine (Effexor). My mum found a poem based around suicide in my wallet and this set off alarm bells. I had just gotContinue reading “#043 – Psychoanalysis and Med’s as a Teenager”

#042 – I’m A Creature Of Habit

I’m a creature of habit. I don’t like being taken outside my comfort zone which at the moment is my room in the hospital. I just went out for an outing with my folks who I haven’t seen for almost a week. I was only with them for just over an hour and all IContinue reading “#042 – I’m A Creature Of Habit”

#038 – Insight Into My Illness

I think I have good insight into my illness. I’m often reassured by people that I come across as being ‘normal’ and I’m sure they wouldn’t have any reason to believe that I’m different in any way unless they spent some time with me and knew my history. My scars (Blog #29) sometimes gives itContinue reading “#038 – Insight Into My Illness”

#025 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 6

There’s nothing to report on again! Today is a public holiday so things are even quieter than usual. My day has consisted of blog writing, nicotine, caffeine and naps. I have been drinking stupid amounts of coffee, Coke and energy drinks. I think I have replaced my alcohol intake with caffeine. It helps with writingContinue reading “#025 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 6”

#020 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 5

I went out with my folks, my sister and my nephew today. It wasn’t for long but it was nice to break up the day and get out of the hospital. We went for a drive to a park for my nephew to have a run around. He’s just turned two. I’m never going toContinue reading “#020 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 5”

#012 – Simplicity is the Key

I didn’t know how to title this blog? Like my head this will be all over the place! I live a pretty simplistic life. I am a strong believer in keeping this as easy and simple as possible. I don’t appreciate activities that put me outside of my comfort zone. I don’t desire things thatContinue reading “#012 – Simplicity is the Key”

#011 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 3

One of the factors that puts me into hospital is to separate myself from the outside world. It’s like time out or a ‘tune up’ as my old man calls it. I don’t have a real stressful life that I’m escaping but it’s a change of atmosphere and a chance to meet people which isContinue reading “#011 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 3”

#009 – Clozapine – Medication

Wikipedia defines Clozapine as this:“Clozapine, sold under the brand name Clozaril among others, is an atypical antipsychotic medication. It is mainly used for schizophrenia that does not improve following the use of other antipsychotic medications. In those with schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder it may decrease the rate of suicidal behavior. It is more effective than typical antipsychotics, particularly in those who are treatment-resistant” So basically Clozapine is an antipsychoticContinue reading “#009 – Clozapine – Medication”

#005 – The King of Illiterature

 This isn’t really a post on mental health. It’s a post on my stupidity. I struggle with stuff I paid no attention to in school. I was to busy chasing girls, smoking weed and hanging out with mates. I did the bare minimum to get through each year. For me being popular and the classContinue reading “#005 – The King of Illiterature”