#076 – Home and Sober

Today is my sixth day out of hospital. Adjusting to the outside world has been a slight challenge but rewarding. One of the major pluses has been I have no desire to drink. As I sit and write this I have the house to myself and during my drinking days this would be the perfect opportunity to race down to the bottle shop. I’m not sure why but I’m not craving or even thinking about picking up a beer? I’ve never experienced this before. I have always had major cravings and the want to wipe myself out. Maybe because I went through a few weeks in hospital sober has adjusted my body and mind to life without alcohol? Maybe my med’s are working out and I’m on a balance where they are working together to create a happy place? It’s only early days! I’m not sure what it would take for me to slip into my old ways?

My cousins wedding was on Friday and I chose to stay home. This was another challenge because I had the house to myself and was watching the football which is loaded with advertisements for beer and it is so glorified. It’s amazing how we are so pressured to drink. My extended family are big drinkers and I knew it would be a dangerous atmosphere for me as I don’t socialise well when I’m not drinking. When I was a drunk I could slur out words and talk to anyone for hours. I have a very low tolerance for the nonsense people who have been drinking talk when I’m not in the same intoxicated mindset they are. There’s nothing worse speaking to drunk people when you are sober… Just ask my parents and people who have put up with my crazy talk over the years!

Published by aperfecttool83

I'm a 37 year old who lives in Melbourne Australia. I have many interests but I want to base this blog on my mental health. I have schizophrenia, depression & anxiety. I have 15 years experience with psychiatrists and I have had close to 20 hospital admissions. I plan on writing about my delusions, voices, paranoia, depression and how to deal with them psychiatrists :) I really hope this blog can help someone. Please feel free to contact me and I promise to get back to you. Have a nice day!

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