#065 – Alcoholics Anonymous

I’m not a fan! I haven’t been to AA in years and when I was attending it was because I was in rehab and were were all urged to go to meetings (Blog #007)It never helped me in any way what so ever. I would never participate I would just site there and listen to peoples war stories. I didn’t feel as if I belonged there. Because I was a new face I would always be selected to go up and talk but I reneged on each occasion. I have problems talking to people on a one to one basis. How the hell was I going to build the confidence to talk to thirty people. There was once when I was high off a heap of diazepam that I considered talking but luckily I wasn’t selected. 

My relationship with alcohol is different to most of the people there. I’ve brought this up in a few blogs but compared to some of the folks I’ve met… I’m a lightweight. My dozen beers didn’t come close to three bottles of vodka a day that some would consume. I wasn’t a every day drinking either. I’m a binge drinker. A lot of the people who attend were pissed anyways. This isn’t to play down my difficulties with drinking but I must admit it made me feel that maybe it wasn’t the big problem I saw as being. Making comparisons can be dangerous.

I have a mate and I have an uncle that treat it like a religion which is great! Their not drinking so if this helps then all the power to them. As with all support groups – I have little time for them. I’ve had alcohol counselling and I would stop the bottle shop on the way home. It all comes down to me! Nobody, AA or support groups can stop me from drinking. I’ve tried all avenues and there not for me!

Published by aperfecttool83

I'm a 37 year old who lives in Melbourne Australia. I have many interests but I want to base this blog on my mental health. I have schizophrenia, depression & anxiety. I have 15 years experience with psychiatrists and I have had close to 20 hospital admissions. I plan on writing about my delusions, voices, paranoia, depression and how to deal with them psychiatrists :) I really hope this blog can help someone. Please feel free to contact me and I promise to get back to you. Have a nice day!

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