#051 – Psychiatric Admission – Day 13

I’m disappointed. I finally come across a medication that works well with me and my shrink tells me he is only going to prescribe them to me while I’m an inpatient at the hospital. The medication is Mogadone (Nitezepam) and it is a benzodiazepine (Blog #014) which means it’s addictive. Gem (psychiatrist) knows my history with abusing benzo’s which I’ll admit I have at times taken large doses but I have never had a physical addiction. I have never taken them on a daily basis. He only dishes out half a packet which hardly lasts me the week. My GP also prescribes them for me but he’s super careful too. It’s almost as if a drug is making you feel happy, it must be eliminated from the cocktail.

I have taken dozens of antidepressants and antipsychotics that do nothing to elevate your mood whats so ever and Gem is happy to dish out Clozapine which is one of the most dangerous drugs out there, yet he want’s me off the Mogadone. He suggested that he can write out scripts for 4 tablets at a time but this would mean I’d have to get myself to the pharmacy multiple times a week. This would be a pain in the arse! Do I need this medication this bad?

I’m not happy. Gem is a great psychiatrist but he’s strict on the med’s he prescribes. When I was under Professor Burrows care he would almost encourage the use of benzo’s. I could ask and receive whatever it was that I wanted (Blog #008)

Published by aperfecttool83

I'm a 37 year old who lives in Melbourne Australia. I have many interests but I want to base this blog on my mental health. I have schizophrenia, depression & anxiety. I have 15 years experience with psychiatrists and I have had close to 20 hospital admissions. I plan on writing about my delusions, voices, paranoia, depression and how to deal with them psychiatrists :) I really hope this blog can help someone. Please feel free to contact me and I promise to get back to you. Have a nice day!

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