#047 – Us Alcoholics Can Be Sneaky Bastards

We can be sneaky bastards us alcoholics. We can be quite creative covering up our drinking. I would lie which is something I don’t do unless it comes down to my drinking. When I was asked if I had been drinking my standard response would be no or I’d play it down by saying in a casual voice ‘Yeah, I’ve had a couple’ when in reality I had consumer a whole heap more.

One of the problems with living with my folks is the fact I had nowhere to put my empties. I couldn’t put them in the recycling bin as it would fill too quick and the folks would notice so I started collecting them and putting them in rubbish bags in the shed, in my car, in my bedroom wardrobe and on bin night I would sneak around the neighbourhood using other peoples bins. Being an alcoholic is a full-time job!

I got real good at acting sober after I’d been drinking. I became real good at it. I would fight the urge to talk a lot, I would double check what it was that I wanted to speak about, I never ever get angry, aggressive, confrontational, If I thought I was obviously drunk and showing it I would keep away from people. The main thing that would give it away is if I was slurring my words.

My folks aren’t stupid. I’m sure there has been countless times that they knew I was intoxicated but didn’t bring it up. Every now and then they would ask if I’d been on a bender and if I was sober I would always own up to it. While I’m in hospital my mum told me she had cleaned out my room and removed 4 o 5 garbage bags of beer bottles. Busted! Thank God they are still wanting me to stay with them. A lot of parents wouldn’t put up with shit like that!

Published by aperfecttool83

I'm a 37 year old who lives in Melbourne Australia. I have many interests but I want to base this blog on my mental health. I have schizophrenia, depression & anxiety. I have 15 years experience with psychiatrists and I have had close to 20 hospital admissions. I plan on writing about my delusions, voices, paranoia, depression and how to deal with them psychiatrists :) I really hope this blog can help someone. Please feel free to contact me and I promise to get back to you. Have a nice day!

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