Antabuse is basically a medication you take to prevent you from drinking piss. It’s doesn’t reduce cravings but you can’t drink while taking it or you become violently ill to the point where hospitalisation may be required and it can even lead to death. It’s a pretty intense medication and it’s expensive.
I do my best not to get into my alcoholism on this blog but I don’t make it a secret that I am an alcoholic. I got prescribed Antabuse through my GP after I had a week long binge and didn’t know what else to do. I had tried anti-craving med’s, I saw counsellors, I spoke openly about it to my psychiatrist, I did 2 months worth of rehab and I tried using will power but all had failed.
As a last resort I turned to Antabuse and it turned out to be a miracle drug. I stopped drinking for three months. I took it every day and it had to be witnessed by someone to make sure it was being taken so good old mum took up the responsibility. Life improved when I was sober but I still missed my beer. I was living at home with the folks and they would have a drink most nights. A drink for my parents is a beer or glass of wine. Not a slab or 3 bottles of wine! This never bothered me as I have learnt not to resent people who drink around me as this is something I can’t escape. People are always going to drink and I can’t expect them to change because of my weakness. They deserve a drink!
I don’t know why but I decided to stop taking it. Maybe because I thought I was better and didn’t need another medication to take on top of all the others. So that’s what I did and within no time I found myself at the bottle shop. I haven’t taken it since and my drinking has been off and on. Definitely too much though. I don’t drink like your average alcoholic. It’s not every day that I drink and it’s not the hard stuff like spirits, Strictly beer and the occasional bottle of wine – usually from my mum’s stash when I run out of beer.
I’ve made the choice to go back onto it once I leaver hospital. I can’t keep doing this to my body and mind. Something has to be done and Antabuse is it!