One of the factors that puts me into hospital is to separate myself from the outside world. It’s like time out or a ‘tune up’ as my old man calls it. I don’t have a real stressful life that I’m escaping but it’s a change of atmosphere and a chance to meet people which is something I don’t do in the outside world. It’s also an opportunity to adjust my medication. My sleeping habits improve and I live off a healthy diet.
Today was uneventful. There really isn’t too much to report on. I have been spending ninety percent of my time writing these blogs and listening to podcasts and music. I saw Gem (shrink) and there is nothing new there. He’s pushing for me to start on a new sleeping pill but I’m reluctant to take it. I have been going to bed late and rising early but getting good sleep so I don’t really need help in this area. I wish there was something he could do about the worsening anxiety but I think he’s out of options as what to do for me. He can only do so much.
I must be on the mend as I’ve been socialising. Just with people who walk past the couch that I have claimed as mine. Just small talk and all the same discussion I have with everyone. Where are you from? How long have you been here? Wife? Kids? I don’t mind this in short bursts but find it hard to hold a conversation for long lengths of time. I get bored.
I haven’t heard from family today and it was me who made the call yesterday. I don’t mind but it would be nice to at least get a message from my brother and sister.